I am an organized person, and it usually drives my husband crazy. I have calendars on my desktop that list every detail that I can plan. Yes, I'm a planner. Always have been. I need that stability and to know even just a tad of what to expect in the future. Of course, I also have a family that includes a 2 year old, and am pregnant... so things don't always work out the way I plan. And that's ok!
At this time, our family has SO much going on. It always seems like May-July months are like that. Although, I can't remember because at this time last year I was getting ready for a wedding. Which, is absolute chaos. So, I was hoping this year would be different. Ok, ok, I realize I was the one who decided to have baby #2 this fall, but holy cow!
So I'm looking... It's the middle of June already. June...July...August...September...wait! SEPTEMBER! What?! I thought there was an extra month just floating before September! I have a birthday party and BABY to plan for in September! Not to mention I'm going to be Largie Margie! Yikes!
So, we have to finish our upstairs construction, which can be started now that the electric is in. Hopefully Jordan is coming home soon to get supplies and Matt can keep motivated. I feel for that poor man, Matt, as he's juggling a full time "grown up" job, a prep course for masters, preparing for the GMAT and entering his master's program, a family and now construction. He deserves a high five, if any of you ever see him.
Then I have to nest. When will I nest?! Haha! I was just talking about positivity last week, wasn't I? I told you I wasn't perfect! I am going to try to have a garage sale in the next month to get rid of a bunch of extra stuff that we have. Hopefully it works out. After that? Painting baby #2's room and buying her stuff. Whew!
So... moral of this story? Nope, not that that I should be completely overwhelmed.. but rather, that today isn't so packed with stuff that I can't enjoy it. I have problems with looking at the big picture too much, and not just staying in the "today." I see the next three months as being total chaos, but last night I realized at 7 that I was totally free to bake a batch of cookies if I wanted to. So, I did, and I enjoyed myself. (I cook, bake, paint, crochet, or sew to relax...f.y.i)
Today I'm going to hang out with my sister-in-law, work on some of Abby's wedding stuff, and relax before work. And I'll enjoy myself. I'll also enjoy Ellie and Matt. I'll take time to just sit with them and talk and play. We need that too.
So here's what I'm saying. Don't get too caught up in the big stuff and don't worry about how it'll end up. My mom, a strong woman, has always told me throughout my life in the hardest moments, "We will ALWAYS be fine." It's true. I can't think of a time where God didn't pull through in my life in some way or another. So, enjoy what he's doing in your day today. That's what He asks us to do.
"Do not worry about tomorrow, for it will have enough troubles of it's own. There is no need to add to the troubles each day brings." I forget where in Matthew that comes from, and E just got up so I have t go. But... enjoy your day! Every part of it, especially the parts where you make yourself sit down and relax!